Im sitting here, its late, and Im feeling happy and emotional at the same time.
Today was a really perfect day, I played frisbee with the kids in the garden, I did laundry while the kids played, we went to the pet shop for dog food, came back and took the dogs for a long walk. Celiac kid and big brother were running. It was nice. We came back, had dinner.
Normal day, nothing special right..? Only for me, the fact that we get to have these normal days is so very special. I think, for the first time in a very very long time I am more relaxed. I am trusting those lungs of hers to do ok, and I am breathing easier knowing that she is.
So my normal day… I am so grateful, so grateful for every single day like that we have.
There is a light , I can see the light, and maybe, just maybe, this crazy move we made will pay off, maybe we found our answer, please let it be so.
Its weird how the minute you decide to do something unconventional, like living apart from your husband, every Tom, Dick and Harry comes out of the woodwork and starts talking about how marriages will fail if you live apart, cheating spouses and failures, people who never once had an opinion about your marriage previously are all announcing pending doom. Whatever I say. Whatever. Really. None of them have a clue.
Living here, living apart is actually saving us, saving us all, because finally, we get to have these normal days. I get to play frisbee with my kids, and hang laundry and cook while they play and not worry that maybe now the wheezing has started and maybe now the cough will come and the issues that follow.
This is where we are not your average celiac family, because most do not have these issues that we have, if you are newly diagnosed I need you to know that if you read this, this is not the ‘norm’.
All we can hope now is that good gets better and better gets strong, and maybe celiac kiddo can outgrow some of these lung issues. Its really not fair that such a small little thing has to battle so many pneumonias. But if it happens, its ok, we live now, we take each day as it comes, try to stay relaxed, don’t make to many plans because cancelled plans are awful.
Today was a day that most people take for granted, and yet for us, it was one of the first completely normal awesome Sundays.
My son, my awesome trooper, my diamond, gave me a hug this afternoon and said ‘ thank you mummy for the bestest day’.